I know that some of you who read this blog may not read my other blogs so I am doing a link here to an entry that I did about kids and preschool. I feel that it is a great topic to get us talking. Do kids need preschool?

I have been trying new things with the blogs so if something is missing that you notice please email me and I will try to fix the problem. I am not very good at this so it is likely that I will lose something along the way.

Hi all I am writing this today because a new and wonderful friend has given me something that I needed and she did not even know she was doing it. This friend has given me the freedom to be me. I was having a bad day with the kids they were fighting and talking back and just refusing to listen so I got each into their own corner and called to see if a friend would be free tonight for some mom time out. She was not but see did take time out of her busy life to just talk and not necessarily about what was going on at home but about books and how God can use this to help get through this season of life. This was great because it got my mind off of what was not going right at home and got it in to something that I like to do with my free time. We talked for just a little bit but it was enough that when it was time to go back to non behaving children my mind was less stressed. I had gotten to switch mods and be me and before I went back to mom mode I took time to pray. I think that sometimes as a mom of young children I forget who I am. I tend to think that I am only the caregiver to two people who with out me would not live. But that is not true.
I am a child of God and need to develop that part of my life too. I need to remember to recharge myself and the best way to do that is to find Christ and talk to Him other wise my children will not be well taken care of. I thank this friend and hope you have a great day.

If you read this and feel it makes no sense I am sorry I was having a hard time with putting down how I feel on the subject.
Peter and I found out that we will not be having another child. I have mixed feelings on this. We have decided together that we love the size of our family and that we did not at this time want more children. However part of me got to thinking that another child may have been fun I think it comes from just thinking what would have needing to be done had we been expecting. As I sit and write this my heart is lifted knowing that we are not have one more and that God is working in us through our other children. They are great blessings and we delight in them everyday.

If you have children reading over your shoulder you may want to wait to read.

Wondering sometimes is so hard. Peter and I have been in a state of unknown now for a couple of weeks. We thought at first it was just because I was sick and on different meds but we are unsure now. The home tests have come back negative but they did with are first child too. We are just so unsure. I have an appointment with the doctor next week to find out what is wrong. If we are to be expecting then it is truly a blessing from God. Just a little unsure that we would have chose on out own to have an other child.