Well it is finally hot here in Wisconsin. It is over 90degrees for the first time and I get the joy of turning on my oven for 5 to 6 hours to cook a turkey. It is all good though because my family was blessed with central air already installed when we bought our home. I don’t normally run it. I like my windows open much more and there are lots of other ways to cool off I do though have to turn it on once or twice just so that it stays in working condition or something like that according to my husband. So I thought why not today.
Month: June 2009
I May Be Manic
OK. I think I finally can down from my I must get this done, NOW!! I just spent 5 hours cleaning only 4 rooms of the house and the rooms are not that big and they were not even that dirty. I woke up this morning and was in this my house is a fifthly mood. I still have 3 rooms to go but I seem to have lost my go.
I will admit that I got rid of a lot of stuff and it felt really good. Maybe I am feeling this way due to so many people living here. I don’t know.
Well I am so tired now that I can barely type correctly so I will have to write later on whether or not the other rooms get done.
Maybe We Should Have Taken Off
What a day! I thought that since my sister and her family were not staying with us this week while they are visiting that we would still do school (we normally take a break). I am beginning to think that it was a mistake.
I decide to still do school because we had to take an extra month off after Christmas due to sudden Vacations and illnesses, which but us a little behind. We do school all summer but I like to start the “new year” in September when the other kids go back to school. Maybe I should have just decide to start a little later and taken the week off. It’s not so much that we have a lot going on with them here. They today are off visiting friends and other family in the area it is more that Alex has a hard time with concentrating knowing that they are coming later to visit and tomorrow we will go to the hotel to visit them. It is just a lot of saying over and over, “you need to do your school work” and then hearing “but why”.
I don’t know we will keep at it, but maybe we will work on some fun things that I have planned instead of the same old stuff this week. I will have to pray about it today and start fresh in the morning I guess.
Facing My Life
Well the meds have stopped working. I am feeling slowly more and more that I could just spend my life watching the wall. I love my kids and my very loving understanding husband but the depression is taking over. I know that part of the reason that the meds are not working well is due to stress and trust me I have my share but part of me just keeps thinking that it is life so get over it……One small problem I seem unable to.
My brother has moved in completely without a job. To things that I wished would not have happened. One thing that made it a little better till today was that starting next week Monday after he graduated my mom had to start giving me her child support which would help a lot. Only one problem he is really sure that he is not going to graduated, so no extra money. Now I did not take my brother in for the money I took him because I wanted him to feel that he did have a family that cares and wants him. However it is hard to make things work money wise with only one income and now 4 adults and 2 kids to feed (Peter and me, Alex, Joseph, my dad and brother.)
Second stress is that we have told my dad that he needs to be out by September. He of course is now not happy and complaining all the time. I don’t want to be my father’s emotional support. That is not my job. I take it in stride and PRAY often for strength and wisdom.
Third is my mother. (Click on mother and read about that.)
Then there is the fact that I home school our daughter, our son is in the middle of the terrible twos, supporting my loving and hard work husband, the house, my sister and her family coming to visit on Friday from Ohio, a new and loved friend moving in 9 weeks, and trying to keep a budget that seems almost unreal.
I guess I can see how one would be stressed but stress is a part of life. So my prayer is this…..
Dear Lord
You are an awesome God who has blessed my life in so many ways. Thank you so much for the chance to have Alex and Joey to love and Cherish a precious gift. I watch them grow in You and I amazed.
Lord I ask You for strength. For strength to make it through the day. For strength in my family. I also ask You patience. For patience with my children to be loving and caring. For my temper that I keep it when I deal with little ones misbehaving. I also ask for Your wisdom. I ask that You help me to seek You in all we do today.
Thank you so much for your Son. He was the greatest gift You could have given me.
In Christ Name I pray
AMEN
Our Wonderful Journey 